Patience.....

It's been almost a week since my last blog and it's been a crazy one. If someone would have told me that writing a book and trying to get it published would be such a roller coaster ride I would probably re-think this whole thing....LOL! Actually I'm lying, I wouldn't, because I love writing and I consider all the torture I am going through to be an experience that I will never forget. It also will be a rewarding one for that matter.

So this week, I've been trying to get out more applications for a literary agent and the process is demanding because every agency has their own list of pre-requisites. In my way, I consider this to be my own little version of American Idol....yes...I know it sounds crazy but I am auditioning aren't I? LOL! It's a bit demanding but nothing good in life ever came easy, that I know for sure.

On another note, the Oscars were this Sunday and I have to tell you the truth, watching all those acceptance speeches made my journey to be a novelist more of a reality than just a dream. I hope that with the publication of my first novel, that I could venture out and do screenplays which would also allow me to branch out in different areas of writing. All these creative thoughts are flowing through me and I have all of them stashed for that day when I weave it all together. I want to be up there one day holding up Mr. Golden Boy and thanking my peers and everyone who helped me get to that point. It would be the ultimate acknowledgement of all my hard work.

Two speeches from that night touched my heart and I'd like to share them with you....the first being Mo'Nique's acceptance speech for her performance in Precious and then Sandra Bullock's for her performance in 'The Blind Side."





With that I leave you for tonight and I promise pretty soon for another peek into "Scars."

xoxo
Catherine

1st Preview of Scars....

Many people have personally asked me why I would title my first manuscript "Scars?" Just the name alone brings to mind a nasty sore, but in my case, "scars" mean more than that repulsive image. So many times in our lives, especially when we are young, do we fall or injure ourselves and what is left behind is the nasty sore from above. As we get older, we begin to form more "scars", deeper ones, but these "scars" are not visible nor can they be touched, these are the "scars" that are etched in our minds and heart. They are what I call, "emotional scars."

My "emotional scars" began almost 13 years ago....yep....that long ago. A major event occurred in my life that made me emotionally vulnerable. Since then I've tried bandaging up every single bad moment in my life but the second something entered my life or jolted it, those bandages were ripped off exposing that emotional scar and leaving me again vulnerable.

I would love to tell you more about those emotional scars and the journey that landed me here talking to you....but if I do, I'll give away the book. LOL! I will eventually give little bits here and there to get you excited but as of now, this is all I have to say....so enjoy and have a good night!

Little Women....

I sit here, late at night, writing down ideas for my second manuscript and behind me are the voices of Winona Ryder and Susan Saradon in the movie "Little Women." As a young girl, when I first read "Little Women" by Louisa May Alcott at the age of 9, I was truly captivated by the lives of the March women, mainly Josephine "Jo" March's. Jo's character defines me to the core. She's very outspoken and she cares deeply for her family (my God, she cuts her long beautiful hair in order to get her mother rail money to visit her wounded father). She is also headstrong and believes she should win every argument. Then there is the writer in Jo, the one thing in the world that she loves the most as do I. Like I said before, I never once thought of myself as a writer or someone who could possibly write a manuscript, but life likes throwing you many curve balls. Tonight, while watching the 1994 version of Little Women, there was a scene that truly touched my heart. As everything in Jo's life seems to be crumbling down around her and she's lost all hope, an opportunity presents itself and inspires Jo to write about her family's journey of hope, love, happiness and the lessons learned. The reason that scene touched me so was because about 3 years ago I found myself in a similar position and for me, writing was a medium that allowed me to let go of frustration, reflect on the good and bad times along with learning something about those moments. The end product of my writing became my first manuscript.

Along the way, I will post more about other novels that have touched my heart and my life. Some have molded who I am today and others truly remind me of a certain period in my life. For now, please enjoy the short clip of Winona Ryder potraying Jo March in "Little Women." The scene that I spoke about above begins about 1:07 into the video.

Good night for now.....